Feeling ill

I have been feeling so sick for the past few months and I wish I could figure out why. It is so frustrating feeling awful and not having any answers as to why, and being uninsured is not helping. I get so frustrating because I never feel well and it seems like everyone thinks I take it out on them, and I dont mean to. I love my friends and family and I never intend to hurt them in any way. I know that things will happen when they are supposed to so I am being as patient as I can and I know things will get figured out.

Friends & Family

I have the greatest friends and family in the world and I love them so much. I am so lucky to know each and every one of them. They all play such a special part in my growing as a person. I feel I dont let them know I appreciate them enough and I feel bad for that. If it werent for them I would not be who I am today.

Life has been so crazy lately. I have been searching for a part time job and cant seem to find anything. So frustrating, but I was told by a friend recently that maybe I am not finding one because it is not my time right now. They are so right. I know that when it is right, I will be able to find something. I am so thankful that I have been able to stay home and raise my son myself instead of having everyone else do it for me like I was a few years back when I had no choice but to work. Life is great and I am so happy right now.

Immature people

So I have this person in my life who thinks its okay to talk down on a family member of mine, for all to see. I got offended and went to this person about it and they just brushed me off like it was nothing. Im sorry but I will forever defend my family members when it is needed. They say that they get along really well with my family member but yet they bash them when they cant defend themselves? I dont think so!! Anyway, I just had to vent for a minute so there ya go.

My husband is my rock

I absolutely have the best husband in the entire world. He truly loves me unconditionaly. I couldnt ask for anything more. We are so lucky to have the kind of relationship that we talk about everything. We may argue a bit but at the end of the day, we still love one another and go to bed happy, most of the time. He helps me through so much in my life and am so grateful to him for all he does for me on a daily basis. I dont know what I would do without him. He helps talk me through any issue I may be having with my own self or just anything in general. I am one lucky lady to have been the one he chose to marry. I know I take him for granted sometimes and I dont mean to. I need to work on thanking him more for all that he does for our son and I.

Fun with the best friend and her family

Today (5/25/12) was an amazing day. I spent the day baking goodies with my best friend for a back sale we are having tomorrow to support Relay For Life. I am so excited to be a part of this cause. It is so near and dear to my heart and has been for many years. Life is so wonderful right now. My husband has an awesome job that he loves, Cadon is being the great nine year old that he knows he can be. He loves to go down the street and play with his awesome friend Adam, whenever he can. Those two are so fun to watch together.
My son was invited to go to the relay for life marathon with Amber and her family on the 1st of June. He came home the next day, so beat and sunburnt. He walked/ran 42 laps around the track while he was there. I am so proud of him for doing that. I would have loved to go myself but I wasnt part of a team. But everyone was in my heart and thoughts for those two days. What a great cause that we all can be a part of. Sorry this took so long to post. I got so busy.

Friends

My friends are so amazing and wonderful! I am so very blessed to have those in my life that I do. I love that I can talk to them and not be judged and that I will have an ear that will always listen to what I have to say.
Bruce, if you are reading this, I want to thank you for your strong spirit and loving personality. I love your family so much and I am so blessed to know you all!
Amber, You came back in my life when I needed a friend that was close. You help me everyday, even if you dont know it. Your family is so amazing and We are so lucky to be able to be your friends and to hang out with you.
I have so many friends I could list but it would take a long time. Just know I love you all and you are never to far from my mind.
I have lost a few friends through the years and I am trying to make things right with them, even if we dont become friends again. I just dont want to have that burden on my shoulders knowing that I could have done something to fix things and didnt take that chance. We all learn and grow on a daily basis. We need to take what we know and learn and help better the lives of those around us.

Life Changes

So, lately I have been trying to make so very needed changes in my life. The process is coming slow but things are getting better. I find myself less depressed, although depression still haunts me, and I am being more of the mother and wife that I need to be for the two main men in my life. I have been trying to work on myself, spiritually and that is coming so difficult for me. Satan sure tries to grab ahold of me harder than I ever thought he would. Some days, I feel like I want to give up, but I know where my heart is and what I want for my family. I am struggling with something personal and would love to talk to someone about it, I just dont know who I can trust wholeheartedly that will listen and give me guidence that I need. I know what you are all thinking and going to say, but Im sorry that just is not an option. I guess I will just continue to pray and to stay on the right path myself. I know that I will be blessed for that. I dont know if she will be reading this but I have to send a shout out to and thank, Tara Contreras. I dont know you that well, but I do know that my life is so blessed because of you. Thank you for your sweet and strong spirit. You lift me in ways I could never explain. You know they say, there is a reason and a season for certain things to come into your life.
I know I mention my husband in all my posts but I am so very blessed to have him in my life. He is my rock and one of the two people that keep me going every day. I couldnt imagine a better man in my life than him. He truly is the best. Cadon is such a blessing as well, as doctors told me my entire childhood that I would never be able to bare children. He is such a miracle child. I know I take them both for granted at times and that makes me feel aweful! though I can not have anymore kids, I am so lucky and blessed to have Cadon. He struggles with ADHD and it is hard on all of us. I am learning every day how to be able to help him. I know that will be a lifelong process but I have learned that being upset about it or frustrated, does not change the fact that he has it, so I am concentrating more on ways I can help him. It kills me that he gets so frustrated about it. I know it is harder for him to handle than it is me as he is the one that is having to truly "live" with it. He knows he has it and he can tell at school that he has it, it is just hard for him to find ways to help himself. Working with his teacher has been such a blessing this year. She is so amazing and I love her. She handles things a lot better than his teacher last year and I can totally see a change in Cadon and his attitude towards school.
I am so blessed with so many things in my life, I could be here all day writing this post. Just know that I recognize God in all things and I thank him daily for all that is good in my life. The church is true, God lives, Jesus died for all of us so that we could return to live with them some day. Thomas S. Monsen is a true Prophet of God and I know that if we follow what he says, that we will all live a very successful life and gain more blessings than we could ever imagine. In the name if Jesus Christ Amen.
I wasnt planning on baring my Testimony, but there ya have it. I guess sometimes when you are typing, things just start to spill out. I hope I didnt get to personal here. Until next time.

My family is my rock

I have such an amazing husband. We have had it hard the past few months but we are getting back on our feet, slowly but surely. I am so thankful for the trials the Lord has put us through together. It has made us a better and stronger couple. Adam is my best friend and is always there to pick me up when I fall. I dont know what I would do without him, truely.

I am so grateful for my mom and step dad and all the love support and help they have given us in our time of need. They are amazing people and I love them with all my heart. We have put them through a lot and they still love us and try to support us in our decisions.

I have thought a lot about my son this past week and the life I have given him. I sure hope that I am raising him in a way that will help him in his life in the future. I sure dont know what I would do without that little man. He is such an amazing loving wonderful little boy and he makes me smile every day.

My father is so amazing and I am so thankful to have him in my life. He is always there for me to turn to when I need a listening ear. When I am having a rough day, I know that I can always call him and he will listen to me talk about my day, without a word, till I get everything out of my system. I know that by the time I am finished talking to him that I will always feel better. I may not always like what he has to say, but he always says things that I know will help me in my life, and for that I am grateful.

My brothers are amazing men and I love them very much. We havent always gotten along but I know that at the end of the day, they will always have my back and love me forever. I am especially grateful for my older brother, John. He has always been there for me and stood up for me when I needed some one. I love him more than he or anyone will ever know. I will forever be thanking him for always being there for me when I needed him.

I have the best family EVER! End of story.

2012

What a year this has been already. My husband was laid off from his job just before Christmas, and finally went back today. I am so grateful for answered prayers and faith. I just wish I could find a job now that would work around my sons school schedule. I know, I know. It is next to impossible to find one with that schedule. I can hope though, cant I? lol. Life is great and I couldn't ask for a better husband or son.